thanks to my secret

i wan to say thanks 4 always b there 4 me...
thanks!~ if u not there 4 me.. i dunno wat i will bcome..
u always will b there 4 me.. when i need u..
thanks..

fate?

somehow i feel that i lost half of my confidence..

in myself..

in my relationship

in my everything...

it making me tired...

it making me suffer..

it making me hurt....

ill.. enough to let it break easily wif just a touch..

it hard to replace..

just lik a glasses..

it can make it back.. but the broken piece sure will b there..

i hope that my heart is make of rubber.. it wont lose even u pull it wif ur all of energy.. in the end it will bcome the way it was..

however.. 2 years.. i edi put down..

just somehow his reaction making me have that sour feel...

y y...y...

so many y"s...

i wanna to ask him ...

when will the answer appears?

mayb this whole life.. i wont ever kno..

bcs he keep hiding from me.. i duno y..

one more Y"

haiz...

i just wan to kno..

let me put down 101% pls!~

don so cruel to me.. if u really wan me to let itgo..

let me let it go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

pls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i beg u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate u.... but i love u more to cover the hate!

i just wan to kno the things i wan to kno..

i don wan let it bcome my YI HAN in my whole life....

my life have no true love when the day u leave me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god!!!

y u do it to me!!!

im not.....strong enough !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just wish to have a normal simple life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that all i wan...

tears... edi too hard to let it drop.. bcs it hurt too deep to let it b...

but now it drop....

means that.. the tears edi keep too full 4 cant hiding it..

i surrender!!!!!!!!!

let me free..

that all i need

T.T

=ZT=

(@.@)

JUST A WORD...
COMPLICATED TO DISCRIBE...
=)
smile to go through it.. just i always do so..
i always that stupid..
i just wish to have the thing i wish to have it..
but the thing that i wan... sure v hard to gain 4 it.. but i always sacrifice 4 it.. evertime wait 4 it.. by b"ing strong.. even though i wan to fall...

don say me strong..
im nt strong enough to say out my own feeling.. ...
just blame myself useless!~
thats all..
=zing=

白羊少女

form 5 jor!~
wah... time past v fast thn i imagine it is..
i still remember when i was young..
i keep imagine when i grow up wat would i b..
wat look i have?
have a long hair... wif big eyes... tall... nice.. charming.. n a farry tales princess that i love bside my side..
i keep asking my parents..
mummy..daddy!!.. if future no ppl love me how wor???...
will i pretty as u mum?
will i b as smart as u daddy??..
my parents just laugh at me..
they say u stay at home also got ppl come ur house say I LOVE U..
i say really?? will he kiss me?? er.. kiss will pregnant???!!!==
im so 单纯~><"
now when i think back those thing.. i feel i am happy to b young..
no pressure.. no worryness..
always asking n imagine future will b lik farry tales story..
but..
thing not lik the things i think bout..
i feel pressure when i in form 5 now..
worry bout future.. work.. education..
i feel headache..
keep thinking if i failed ... how?
think bout if i choose wrong future road.. how?
many many many!!!!!=(
izit i think too much bout it?
its just boom out!~
im a 冲动,开朗,心软,容易被人欺骗和利用的女孩~
always let ppl bluff.. once n once..
=(
especially boys..
so now making me feel that i cant trust a boy easily..
im not the princess that i imagine i wish to b..
i just lik a cinderella that lose her shoe n it was never been found ~
everything change...
spoil..
dissapointed...
this call 社会的残酷~现实~!
just hope my dreams do come true..
=)
-zt-

人生乐在相知心

我和他一年的友情就相灰尘一样~
我感到非常的失望他是这样的人
我从不这样不跟我所谓的好友不说话过..
我这次我不懂为何我能狠下心来
很想和他说话的...
看他一个人..
但他的态度..!~
让我感到不值..
想用这种方式改掉他的那个KUAN..
=="
他曾是我的好友
所谓"人之相知,贵在相知;人之相知,贵在知心"!~
我以前就不是很喜欢参他
我以为他会改...
跟他一年的友谊..让他这样毁了~
我纯真吧??
以为...以为~!
可能在他心里..我都不是他所谓的好友..
我真的很失望~
没有办法面对他..
自以为事的他!!!
不值得~
我太狠了吗???
请告诉我不是!!!~T.T
友谊不是这样的..
他的伪装...让我无法和他来往~
他在背后说了这么多人家丑恶的事情
对不起...
你已经不是我的好友~
对你来说没什么..
但我从来对朋友忠心耿耿..
就像我的第二个LAO GONG 一样~
你的所做所为...是有报应的~
我希望我现在做的选择是对的..

我现在有回我以来的好友~XD
PINK FAMILY..
我不需要伪装~
我很开心自在~
有什么就说...
坏的好的...全说出来~
这才是真正的友谊!!
-ZT-

end my sweet sixteen

WAT?

HAR???

WAT AGAIN???

Im gonna b 17 soon

T.T

i more lik the number of 16..

kakaka..

17 feel so old eh..=(

i always slp b4 9..

during the holiday ..

i so noty punya!~

SLPPY HEAD slp after 11...

yohoo..

mostly everyday i on9 till 11++ just go to bed..

but dunno is get use to slp early..

i cant slp at all..=="

need wait 1 hour later u just can get into my dreams..

opps..

panda eye come out liao..

i need to have BEAUTY SLP..><"

aboh really bcome LAO YI jor..

kakak~~

i worry that will i get up on time tomoro morning..

5 AM.. again!!~

bath early in the morning..

><"

my UNIFORM day start again..

(@.@)

this year lik din wish to go back school...

haiz.. dunno y..

by ZT